ack, ok, reading to much into things...
I am about at that point you get when your in pain for a very long time and it just keeps building up. Started nerve blocks in my lower back 6 weeks ago, two weeks apart, so last friday? was my third. Well I went from hurting all the time but being able to put up with it, to actually going out and buying a freaking cain because I now, never know when my legs are going to give out.... and damn I though I knew what pain was about, am I learning something new, dissociation doesn't even help, everyone pops on and says screw this and I come back out
So I am sleeping even less now, and never getting blank time..
words to live by:
When growing up you figure you will never die, later in life after all the stupid things you did and could or possibly should have died doing, you learn to wish you had at times...